No More Pride

There are times that when I'm set up with someone, I think, "OMG he's so not for me," and I could carry on about not wanting to go out with him.

But once I'm forced into it, I try to have a positive attitude. So much so, that I end up saying something like, "I don't care. If I end up with him, you can laugh at me for the rest of my life."
I feel like when people start being mochel on their kavod, just so that they could be married, "I don't care how wrong I was, I just want to married!" it's a sad, sad day.

What ever happened to taking pride in yourself and your convictions? You're so desperate to just be married, you're willing to have everyone laugh at you for the rest of your life granted you're married.

Hell, Yeah, I'm Bitter

I confess.
I'm bitter.
There, I said it. Yay!
I am bitter.
It's hurtful when people shove their engagement in your face. And YES, they do it on purpose. You can tell me I'm imagining it, but I'm not. And I know I'm not.
Married girls feel as though they reached the finish line before I even entered the race and they feel the need to prove themselves again and again by saying the words "my husband" in every sentence they utter.